A few years ago I found myself in a storm of epic proportions. What started out as a dream job turned into a toxic situation where I found myself grasping desperately for my bearings as gale force winds raged around me. I wanted nothing more than to run away, lick my wounds, and quickly heal from this horrendous situation. But, the healing process was not going to be quick.
That storm caused emotional, mental, and spiritual wounds so deep it took years for them to heal. During that time I often asked God, “why?” Why did I have to walk through this storm? Why did they betray me? Why did it hurt so much? Why didn’t telling the truth change anything? I wanted to understand. I wanted to put the broken pieces back together. I wanted resolution. But what I really wanted was control. I wanted to control everything because I didn’t want to be sad anymore. I wanted to be free.
About a year ago I got the answer to “why” questions. What God revealed to me that night while writing in my journal was something that completely changed my world.
God showed me that sometimes telling the truth doesn’t change the situation at all.
God reminded me that I had zero control over the situation, or the outcome- no matter what I said or did. He was in control.
I used to think that me telling the truth would somehow bring freedom and healing and the storm would stop. Hello ego trip. God put me in my place and reminded me that it is HIS truth that sets people free. Not mine. If freedom and healing were not happening then it was because they were not ready to see and believe the truth.
As I journaled through this new idea God revealed even more. The truth might not have set them free… but it had set ME free. The truth had set me free from the lies that were spoken over me, from the rumors that were spread about me, from the condemnation I felt, and from feeling responsible for the outcome. The truth had set me free from the grip of the enemy. The truth set me free to be obedient and release the control back to God.
Before I went to bed that night I wrote, “Be brave little one. This might not end the way you want. But I’m in control.” It’s a promise I continue to cling to when dark storm clouds gather in my life. Maybe you need to cling to this promise today, too. Beautiful woman of God be brave. This might not end the way you want. That’s OK. God is still in control.
** This post is an excerpt from the upcoming Unbroken Bible Study. Registration opens June 27th!
Raychel Chumley is a Life Coach, Author, Speaker, and Entrepreneur. She is the Co-Founder of Big Blue Couch™ Coaching, LLC. After finding healing and purpose from a troubled marriage, toxic friendships, and postpartum OCD, Raychel is on a mission to break bondage and speak truth over other women. She is the author of the book and coaching audios, Celebrate Your Man and the upcoming Bible Study, Unbroken. Raychel lives in North Dakota with her husband, Brandon, and their three children.