Lance: My Anxiety Story
It’s been said that worrying is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn’t take you anywhere.
So why do we do it? Why do we let ourselves be controlled by worry, fear and doubt. All rolled in to one it becomes anxiety, the worst form of worry. It can have such an effect on you that we become a shell of who we used to be. I know firsthand how hard it can be to overcome. This is my anxiety story.
My struggles with anxiety started when I was 19 years old when debilitating panic attacks started that always made me fear for my life. I was basically Chicken Little all day long. When the panic attacks would hit I would start sweating, my hands would start shaking and my heart would be beating out of my chest. I would think “this is it, this is how I’m going to die.” Nineteen year old me was broken and weak and I thought I was never going to live a “normal” life. I also thought no one would understand what I was going through.
Anxiety can be a ruthless predator. It makes you feel isolated and alone and worst of all, out of control. You don’t know when your next panic or anxiety attack is going to happen so being out in public is your worst enemy. I was weak if I asked anyone for help. I also used to think talking to people about what I’m struggling with was showing weakness. I wanted people to think I had it all together, I didn’t need their judgment. What I really needed to do was to face the fear head on.
Facing the Fear Head On
I slowly started opening up to people about what I was dealing with. My mom first and then friends and family. I started taking medication and seeing a counselor. The medication part was the hardest thing. In fact it’s still hard for me to share with people because I felt so defeated all the time. Once I started sharing though I found a whole group of people going through the same things I was. I wasn’t alone. And neither are you.
This is my anxiety story and I feel like God wanted me to share it because someone needed to read it. If that’s you I hope you know it’s you. I hope you know that God loves you and sees you. Anxiety does not have to define you. Anxiety is a part of your story, not your whole story.
If your struggling with this today seek out someone you trust and start to open up. You can even leave a comment below and talk to me. You are not alone. I know that it can be scary to admit your anxiety, and doubt is already starting to creep in as your reading this, but march on. One scary step can be the start to something better…and a whole new normal.
Lance Moericke is the General Manager of Big Blue Couch™ Coaching. He is a blogger, Courageous Nation™ podcast show host, and one of the “Men in the Den.” He works at the local movie theater, runs an online store on eBay, and loves the Green Bay Packers. Lance is married to Miss Maddie and they have one daughter.